Crawling at my own pace.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

1. Alhamdulillah, I passed my 2nd Professional Exams; and im on my way onto my 4th and 5th semester. Feeling a bit anxious, clueless and very unprepared. I am currently still in the holiday mode. This is going to be the last week of my "break". So, im going to try and make full use of it by finishing at least a book by tis week. *When I say book on hols; I mean non-academic-medical-related books...ya know what I mean!*

2. Alhamdulillah, my cousin is going to be the first one #ofmygeneration to get married! :) He studied in Morocco and is now an Ustaz. Currently pursuing Masters and is officially engaged with a 25-yr old doctor. #Partlyhappyforhimandundeniablypartlyjelous.hehe.
Anyways, what I want to highlight here is that, he is getting married through "Baitul Muslim Services" or in other words; 'orang tengah'. wow. I was amazed by him, because so far I have only read it in books and through chats with other usrah sisters, but I have yet experienced my own family member using this 'service' I would say. I personally am on the same side as him, I support his noble action by doing it through the right medium, which is why I am Alahmdulillah genuinely happy for him. Congratulations brother :)
#wondering who's gonna be next in the family. HAHA =.="

3. Please pray for my sister, she is currently feeling a bit under the weather. #Stay strong dear sis!

4. I am really missing my best friend, Suria! So far, I havnt been able to get to see her. I know she is all busy with studies, as it is her turn to sit for her professional exams. I wonder how she is coping? Hurm..

5. In par with the title of my post for today, I am feeling slightly angry at myself. Why am I so slow..
I am like the tortoise in the "Rabbit&Tortoise race". Yup. Slow. Slow. S>L>O>W.
I am slow in my Islamic rootings.

Imagine: Hidup kita ni macam sebatang pokok. Well at least we all started similarly to a seed. We are then nurtured with water and light and heat which is somewhat equivalent to love and knowledge that is poured onto us as we are growing up. Once we have fully developed our first branch of root, we would then start to venture out insearch of more knowledge (water). We then process these water and minerals into food which in turn used to build up new cells and maybe grow beautiful flowers on our branches. Likewise, the knowledge that we have obtained is processed by our head to be turned into real practices in our daily routine. So that the flowers will be our Iman and akhlak. That is our real beauty.

For me, I have yet to actually grow strong roots myself. Because I am slow, undeniably slow.
#Speechless.
What am I going to do? Should I accept this as myself? Is this who I really am?

6. I have lots of plans for this week and hopefully it could all be done before my posting starts. InsyaAllah.


May He grants all of us with Sakinah. #Isureneedone.