50;50 This is it!

Oh my! Today's the day. The day that I will be getting my results.
None but only He knows how I will spend my days after this. SubhanAllah. How helpless; after striving; shedding tears and sweat, finally today has come.

Evrytime I talk about result, I swear my stomach would have a funny feeling, my heart beats faster and my whole body feels cold. Huh :'/ Pls lets just put that aside for a moment.


I wanna tell you about my usrah session yesterday. I love my usrah :)
Yesterday was my turn to give tazkirah :D *psst, dnt tell anyone, but I personally love giving tazkirah* haha! funny right? I really do like sharing my knowledge with others who are willing to listen to me.
and that is one of the beauty of usrah; it allows you to build confidence and detect your weakness in public speaking. I mean where else would you find a crowd whose intention is only the best for you!

Anyways, yesterday I presented a lovely story which I had found here --> Read me! :)

I love this story; you can really extract many good morals out of this short story. To me; it reflects back to myself. AFter doing a few more research for my tazkirah, I stumble upon this message:

"You can read up to 10 pages of Quran per day; that's good. Though, after you have closed the Quran, can you explain to other people at least an ayat of what you have read?"

SubhanAllah; *PANG!!* tembak terus ke jantung! haha! *reflect back to yourself too*

My tazkirah then ended wth a hadith that I personally love:

The Devil [Iblis] said, “If I am successful in persuading man to do three things, then that will be all I need: 


◕ To make forget his sins. 
◕ To regard his good deeds as too many.
◕ To be proud of his own opinion."


[Dirar ibn Murrah] 

Amazing hadith isn't it? I was really touched by the last point:

"to be proud of his own opinion"

SubhanAllah, trust me, I personally have seen people whom I knew of before to be humble, but when many people started seeking her opinion for almost all educational matters, she became egoistic and it was visible through her actions. *looking at a mirror*

Yup, I was one of them. After reading this hadith; I felt like crying. Hating myself of what I have become.

His (Allah) servants are always confronting one of these two tribulations. Either wealth/good life or a disaster. I was tested with a good life ; Alhamdulillah but IT FEELS AS IF i HAVE FAILED. Certainly.
I have forgotten where I came from. I had forgotten how to respect other people.

I had forgotten to "treat others like how you want them to treat you". MasyaAllah.








ALhamdulillah, over time after the discovery of that hadith, I started to ponder upon myself, trying hard to reflect and change myself often. I still am trying till now, which is why I think they said Istiqamah is a journey of a long and rough road. Though you must never be astray/deviate from the path itself.

Huh; alhamdulillah I have this platform to say what I feel and let others who cares knows how I feel and my view on certain things. I am certainly not right always, so please dear readers, correct me if im wrong; for I have only YOU to be with me :')


Alhamdulillah; that will be all for now.
Please make dua for my results.

p.s: ILY too sister Suria :))