20 years of waiting

A friend once told me a story.

There was this ulama, in other words, a strong believer in Islam, and a person Muslims turn to whenever they have doubts regarding Islam's perfect regulations. (Correct me if Im wrong). Anyways, this particular ulama admits that he was having a very hard time performing his duties to Allah. He felt nothing when he performed those solat, reciting the Quran, or reading the hadith. He felt as is there was no connection between him and his Creator. Do bear in mind though that Allah is always there and near to you, it is you who repels away from Him. Astaghfirullah.

Can you imagine, a situation of an ulama, having to admit that he felt nothing while performing his duties to Allah? An ulama? A person who is regarded to have strong faith and beliefs.

This ulama never gives up though. He never leaves his duties to his Only One. Years after years had passed, and he still remains that way. Until one day, after 20 years of feeling empty, his heart was suddenly blessed and filled with grace from Allah. He literally finds it easy to perform his responsobilities to Allah again, and his heart would forever be longing to spend time with his Creator through his solat. SubhanAllah, 20 years.

An important lesson that I learned very well is that sometimes, you have to be patient and put in the best effort that you can in finding His light. You might feel as if you have found it once, but, if you lost it, then, be patient, and try to find it again. InsyaAllah, one day you and I will find it. Yes.That sweet secure comforting feeling in your heart when you feel close to Him will come back. It will come back to me. Amin Ya Rabb. Amin.